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What haunts me is not that you want to call me, but cannot call.
Is not if you want to call, can call, but do not call.
Is not when you could call but do not want to call.
Is not when you call but cannot really speak with me.
Is not if you can speak but don't call, or when you want to speak
And don't call.
Is not if you are calling but don't speak a word.
Is not when you call but don't want to speak with me.
What haunts me --
The hobble, hoax, horror, hollow, holocaust in me --
Is fear that you want to call, speak with me, that you call and speak,
But say nothing.