28 To V. (inner dialogue) In the evening, you told me what you had never told anybody, what you would never -- you said this -- tell anybody: 'In the crowd where anyone can look straight into my eyes, I am alone and I want to be left alone.' 'I am alone and I want to be left alone in my building when I overhear the sounds my neighbours make in secret from me. On all sides. I wake up in the dark to see a man peeping though the crack in the ceiling at my naked body the same way a man looked greedily at my naked body as a boy in a public shower many crowds ago.' 'On a trading floor where I do not even have four thin cardboard panels around me -- only a desk, and anyone can hear my every word, I am alone and I want to be left alone.' 'With my friends who' -- you said this -- 'are crawling up and down each other, and who ask me why I don't pick up my phone, I am alone and I want to be left alone.' 'I am afraid,' -- you said this -- 'Because of your presence, I could not sleep. I just lay next to you for the entire night,' -- Looking greedily at my naked body and, then, straight into my eyes in the morning.







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